3,5.

In the beginning, love is colorful. It’s intense, overwhelming, new, surprising and every time you discover new things about your partner which manage to amaze you. You talk to each other, you have love for each other and that process repeats itself.

But when years pass by, it often happens you forget to talk to each other, you forget to have love for each other. You fight about the smallest of things, you keep things to yourself because you’re afraid of saying them or because you don’t want to hurt the other. People often become silent in their relationship, and while their personalities seem to intertwine with one another, cracks often appear and a lot of time those cracks break. The colors fade and things are no longer intense, new, surprising and everything has been discovered.

You start taking each other for granted and you no longer see each other standing, frustrations build up and those cracks break in such ways that pieces start to disappear.

Love should be colorful, intense, overwhelming, new and always surprising.

Materials: A2 paper / 160 grams, ecoline & a bucket of water.

Freestyle.

Model: Sem van Eenbergen

Ink dripping, fingers ticking, liplicking and past midnight session freestyles where I found my words in the lost, and lost my words when I found myself writing in circles and thinking in squares – putting my thoughts in little boxes.

And I give away these boxes expecting nothing in return – while my thoughts run empty and this freestyle ends.

But the end is never the end, only a new beginning. Guess I’ll be running in circles again, but no longer thinking in squares.

Layers. (experiment)

I just completed a little experiment – which came to me when I started thinking about the multiple layers of our personalities, social dynamics, our emotions, our reactions, the different labels we have. We all function within different environments, and for different situations – we tap into different parts of ourselves, or we combine and layer our skills, thoughts, emotions and so forth. I used myself as the basis for this experiment and tried to see what kind of different layer possibilities were there, what kind of blending options there were and how that would affect the picture – keeping in mind that every blending mode, color experiment or layer experiment functions as a catalyzer for each setting which I just mentioned ( personality, social dynamics, emotions, reaction, labels ). Food for thought; how do our personalities, social dynamics, our emotions and our reactions combined with our environment affect how we function, how we portray ourselves, how we feel, think and experience the world?

Enjoy.

Job wanted.

I will work for: food, money, one month rent, Macbook (Pro), iMac, Interrail Global Pass ticket, 5 Days Off Passe Partout.

Services offered: cleaning, doing groceries, archiving, organizing, writing ( blogs, articles, website text), beta reading and correcting, designing websites, flash banners, flyers ( print work of any kind ), ironing, doing laundry, getting your coffee, vacuuming, re-installing your computer, personal assistant, dog walker, cat feeder – and basically anything else you can think of.

Available per: Now.

If you know someone who’s looking to hire – email me.

tarona@tarona.nl

Block. Kill. Inspired.

When you have friends such as Stefan Lucut or Yorick de Vries, it is never really hard to be inspired to create things. Knowing both of them for quite some years now, they both have guided me through years of illustration, design, creating – some good and many bad.

The main thing they both expressed to me was that I should not create so many ‘pretty’ things, but create things that are ‘me’ and are more pure than the one in a dozen designs that have been floating around the planet and the internet. Everything has already done before, and your signature style is always yourself being expressed in your work.

Even though they are two completely different artistst, they both have been telling me the same thing: “Find fun in what you do, don’t look at what other people do, and always create what you want to create”.

In term of designing, drawing or just making random crap – I have never felt more inspired by these two.

I dedicate these pages to you guys, and to everyone who feels like they are lost in all the aesthetics. Create crap, kill your darlings and keep on going.

Raw.

I like anything raw. Raw food, raw illustrations, raw love, raw emotions, raw sex. Raw photography, the kind that has dust on the film and where you see a person’s natural flaws instead of it being killed and smoothed  by Photoshop. Rawness is so rare these days it seems – in a place where we are expected to be all perfect, mannered, well dressed, be the exceptional happy couple, the perfect mom, the A grade student, the sweet daughter, the good son, the citizen father, the employee who does it’s work to a tee.

Being unraw is exhausting.

Being raw is easy. It’s easy being imperfect, being insanely sexual, to fuck up your illustration, to have crazy thoughts. I think being truly raw, is to be truly human, to be in the purest of form. Rawness is the thing you experience at the end of an exhausting day, or when you have this amazingly heavy orgasm, given to you by someone you are in love with, after having a big fight and screwing your brains out during make up sex. Perhaps I like raw so much, because it is the thing I once was and no longer know how to be. But I will be again, rawness reigns supreme, not chaos. Raw comes before chaos. And since my life now, is chaos, I and I feel like chaos, I guess I’ve been more raw than I’ve realized all along.